Josielden R.

Well how do I start. I met Raquel in 2012 to 2013, she was working in the children's department, beautiful, dressed like a doll. After a few months, we went to the conference of men and women of the Verbo da Vida church, where we talked a lot and fell in love, we came back in love and convinced to take on the relationship. The looks and sighs denoted how much we want each other in all areas. In dating, we had some excesses but we returned to the Lord, praying and having a holy courtship. We dated for a period of 1 year, got engaged and married. In the beginning everything was new, we helped each other, but we forgot the most important thing, the Lord must be the couple's main reason for worship. So, the little foxes (addictions, movies with demonic influences doors, meaningless and meaningless discussions without following Galatians 6:1, disrespect on both sides, lack of captivating one another, lack of individual care of Spirit, Soul and Body, among other things) ended up massacring the flowers that were blooming (feelings of love, admiration, desire, care, mutual respect, etc.), reaching a point where no one recognized themselves as husband and wife anymore, ending up decontextualizing the functions, overloading each other. I made a lot of mistakes, I should have fulfilled my role as priest of the house, led my family to worship God the Father. Today I regret it bitterly, but I understand that my future is opaque, without colors and without design, and in this, I see that God is the painter. I handed it over to HIS hands, because I don't know what's going on in her heart, what I know from her attitudes and the way she treats me today is that there is certainly no turning back. At that moment, my decision was to surrender to the Lord all my anxieties and fears, and to go back to worshiping Him as if it were my last breath, and to remain in that, being constant, to increase my intimacy with Him, for in the future, if God allow me, to become a family priest exactly the way He wants me to be, being loving, caring, generous, upright, a man of words and attitudes, where there is no bad deceit. The fact that I understood this diagnosis taught me a lot, the way I function, my limitations and abilities. I understand that what the world calls ADHD, I call the manifold wisdom of God. I'm not talking about blackouts or hyperactivity, because all excess doesn't come from him. That's why the word says that he who loves Christ must walk as He walked, and Jesus walked in balance always. Even when he expelled the merchants from the temple, he controlled himself, remember the scene when Pedro cut off Malco's ear? Jesus said that He, being the son of God, could ask and Legions of angels would come to His favor, so He restrained himself when he expelled the merchants, restrained himself in the several times he was called the son of Beelzebub, when he was mistreated and judged, when he was betrayed and finally crucified. Today, in the face of this separation, I decided to surrender myself, as a person, as a professional, as a husband, as a father, as a son, as someone hurt and broken, to God in the name of Jesus and to the care of the Holy Spirit of God and I decided to trust them my life and what He decides, I know it will be done and it will be for my good, as it says: 11 For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will cry out to me, come and pray to me, and I will hear you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. Book of Jeremiah 29:11-13 Cherish and love your wife, she is a daughter of God who in no way should be mistreated and disrespected just as She should value you, both are children and what we do to our spouses, whether for good or bad, there will be a harvest. I tell everyone I can talk to so they don't do what I did.